
John Piper, The Passion of Jesus Christ
John Piper, The Passion of Jesus Christ
My baby angel is going to be turning 1 in less than 2 months! I am in utter shock and just can not understand how this has happened, where did the time go? A year.. unfathomable and as whats his name from Princess Bride would say... Inconceivable! I sat and looked at her today and couldn't get over first of all how absolutely A-dorable she is but also how ENORMOUS she is. 20 pounds now I am sure! Almost time to invest in a new frontward facing carseat :0), that is a little exciting. She is pulling up on everything and practicing her balance as she lets go to stand alone, it will not be long before she is walking. Butterflies will be her birthday party theme, of course, and I can't wait to have oh so MUCH fun with it!
Other things floating around in my brain is the enormous amount of "things" taking up space in my backyard. I can hardly think of anything else. It is... just... a monsterous mess, that is all and I am anxious to get rid of it all. We have company coming in town Thursday night some of my lovely in-laws. It will be a wonderful time, as always.
Life for me is always a never ceasing cluttered mess. Not life itself but all the things in my life or really in my house. I can not seem to "get it together" for the life of me. I clean, deep clean, schedule, declutter, organize, set out routine after routine and yet day in and day out I always feel like I am still lagging behind. I know, I know it is all about creating better habits and some how encouraging my family to in that direction. We are happy though in our never ceasing cluttered mess. One day... One day...
Okay, so I am not sure where this babbling post came from. I couldn't think of anything important to post about and then just decided to be me for a moment, the me my husband knows, the babbling me after all the kids are in bed.
“It seems to me that every morning when a man wakes up still impenitent, and finds himself out of hell, the sunlight seems to say, ‘I shine on thee yet another day, as that in this day thou mayest repent.’ When your bed receives you at night I think it seems to say, ‘I will give you another night’s rest, that you may live to turn from your sins and trust in Jesus.’ Every mouthful of bread that comes to the table says, ‘I have to support your body that still you may have space for repentance.’ Every time you open the Bible the pages say, ‘We speak with you that you may repent.’ Every time you hear a sermon, if it be such a sermon as God would have us preach, it pleads with you to turn unto the Lord and live.” (Spurgeon)
Last night was treacherous and today I am tired and the right side of my head is throbbing. From 3-4:30 Butterfly couldn’t sleep, I believe she is cutting her 8th tooth. When I go in to get her the first time at 3:00 she is standing in her little playpen, which is all she will sleep in for some unknown reason to me. I pick her up and rock her in expectation that she will quickly fall back to sleep but when I look down at her she is staring around the room and at one point tries to lift her head to look around but I would have none of that! I decide to lay her down awake in hopes that she would go to sleep on her own. I gently close her down so to make little noise as to call attention to my retreating and as I go through my door I decide to close it half way. I snuggle back into my bed and await my next call but have high hopes that I can drift back to sleep until morning, well later morning. It isn’t but 20 minutes or so that I am called back out of my sleep and bed, I get up feeling my way to the door forgetting that I closed it half way and I nail it directly in the corner on my right eye. I was shocked! Oh my gosh…what just hit me! Expresso alarmed sits up in bed and turns the light on, I now realize what happened as I open my eyes to see the door before me. I have to say I was worried that blood was going to start seeping down my face but thankfully it wasn’t that bad. Anyway Butterfly and I continued our early morning dances 3 more times and by the 4th dance I surrendered to the idea of getting up at my usual 5:00 which was only 30 minutes away. We all slept until 8:00 and have a hard time recovering since. These days are rough… so many demands that I can not back out of… I must keep going but I don’t see how and the throbbing isn’t helping any. Right now we are crawling through school looking ahead to the joys of this evening when all will settle down some and we are all able to come together and just relax.
On my kitchen blackboard I have this written… The JOY of the LORD is you STRENGTH… and I press on.
Also... read this, reflect, remember and be moved.
Have you seen this? I have been sadly ignoring it for weeks and now after finally taken a moment to read what it is all about am going to join!! The Heart of the Matter is hosting this little Friday meme which is going to be very encouraging and fun. I am coming in a little late, as usual.
This last Friday the theme was A Day in the Life. I must admit that we have not had very many typical days lately due to just a lot of rush. I have however made a new schedule that I very roughly followed this last week when we were able to. My devotion to the mornings went fairly well, I got up each morning earlier than I have been so + for me and I have been really enjoying my alone time with the Lord.
At last here is our Daily Schedule:
Each Day's Journey...
5:00 – Quickly obey the call of the alarm, slip into the bath, get dressed with makeup, grab a cup of coffee, throw in laundry and then be STILL as I come into the presence of the Lord in worship, praise, prayer and in His word.
6:30 - Switch laundry and straighten and prepare as the sun rises before my Littles arise from their sweet slumber, fold laundry with Revive Our Hearts.
7:00 – Get the boys up and dressed, begin breakfast as family reunites from their separation.
7:30 – Breakfast devotional, catechism, memory work and goals for the day. Quick kitchen clean up, brush teeth, chores and anything else left in preparation.
8:30 – Begin our school day with prayer. During this time T-Rex is playing in his room with various toy and Butterfly is just waking up. I will get her dressed and feed her during:
First Language Lessons/Copywork
Horizons Math
Spelling Workout
9:30 – Break!! Enjoying Books together and a quick clean up *vacuum and put clothes away*
10:00 – Come together for 2nd half of school:
Science
History
Read-Aloud
11:30 – Finish any extras and then enjoy some free time before Lunch!!
12:30- Just enjoy the gift of time in relaxation(not cleaning!)
1:30 - Classical Reading time together, grab some books and sit on couch as we independently enjoy a good book or 2 or 3
2:00- Exercise/Play time
3:00- Prepare dinner and Daily Chores
4:00- Mandatory Outside playtime if not to cold otherwise inside play
5:00- Begin dinner, eat and then clean up as a family and then have some Family Time!
6:45- Start calm music as we all prepare for bed with quick clean ups, pjs, teeth brushed, get water.
7:15- Begin bedtime routine: poetry, songs of worship,prayer and kisses (lots of kisses) goodnight
After the littles are all in bed my evening begins:
Detailed straightening of each abandoned room, preperations for tomorrow, time with hubby, some computer time, reading time, study time and then prayer and lights out by: 10:00 or 10:30.
That is it! This is my hopes for each day's journey but they very rarely walk directly down this path, they are often detoured and sometimes even dead end but the main hope is that while we all walk in our day's journey we will do it in a manner worthy of the LORD, fully pleasing to Him, bearing fruit in every good work and increasing in the knowledge of God. (1 Corinthians 1:10-11)
My hearts most yearning desire is to not just simply walk through each moment of 2008but to walk intentionally in love and not just any love but the same love that was displayed for me on the cross through our Savior. That love... self sacraficing... a fragant offering to God. I did not make any "resolutions" per say but here are 8 things that I want to change for the better, that I plan of commiting to in 2008...
1. I want to KNOW God, I want Him to be an extreme reality in my life, in my thoughts and deep in my heart. I want His reality to be with me everywhere, I don't just want to continue to walk through each day with an inconsistent and unrealistic and distorted view on God, I want to walk radically in love and in the knowledge of the One who made the universe and breathed life into Adam and me. This will be conceived through a disciplined and consistent time with Him each morning, I am devoting my early mornings to the Lord... completely giving Him my first hour in each new day to dwell with Him in the word, through prayer and in adoration and praise. My first steps will be taken with Him, this is not negotiable...
2. To crucify my fleshly desire to be over my husband and to disrepect him when we disagree or clash in thoughts. To grow with him, to daily find ways to encourage him, support him, show him undivided attention and affection, to love him more than myself and give all of my energy to him.
3. Oh to be a fun loving mother! I just want to play with them more... and enjoy them where they are. Set up 1 day each week for me to have some alone time with them seperately.
4. Make it a consistent habit of sending cards to family to let them know that we are thinking of them and that we love them even though we live miles away.
5. Set up a childrens bible study for our neighborhood kids at our house every week or every 2 weeks.
6. Surrender to the Spirit's leading in showing hospitality and being in peoples lives through prayer and daily thoughts and actions.
7. To prayer for God to lead me in earning a little extra income.
8. Find a daily cleaning and exercise routine that will work for me and my family and to drink more water with my coffee.
Lord, please enable me to commit to these and glorify you through them. Lord, I have attempted at these almost weekly and failed, Lord I can not do anything with out you... walk with me, stay with me, don't let me go anywhere with out you by my side, continually give me the strength that I so need.
Visit Extravagrant Grace, an inspiring santuary I stumbled upon the other day, for more Living Intentionally in 2008.
11:47 and I am still awake at my computer. It is work that calls my fingers to tap this time. I have finally made a nursery worker schedule. I am the Nursery Cordinater at our church and for the many months that I have taken this job I have been the main worker in our charming little nursery. I don't mind all that much but it does become very draining to ones spiritual thirst. This schedule will allow me to enjoy some spoken words of God through His mighty vessel Marq Toombs and I can not tell you how excited I am about that! I pray that everyone will be pleased with the schedule. I really struggled with this because I have a phobia of upsetting people and so the idea of assigning people to work on certain Sundays just makes me a little lot uncomfortable. This is something that I would really like to get over. I have never enjoyed being an extremely passive person. Alrighty, I have set my printer for 20 copies and now I must finish up my last Saturday night preperations for the madness of Sunday morning.
Be blessed... Good Night!
Oh how I love your law! It is my meditation all the day.
I did 4 loads of laundry today and put one of them away! Woo hoo for me. There is a basket of folded socks and hanging clothes on the couch, a basket on the floor under it with t-shirts, a blob of clean boy shirst, pjs and socks on the dryer, some clean shirts and pants in their room on the floor (where it can't be seen of course or tripped over) and sitting in the dryer is Butterfly's bedding. I am still playing catch up from our trip. While in my room I was thinking well, the clothes are clean... and I grabbed an assumed dirty shirt of Expresso's off the bed to toss in the dirty hamper only to find it grossly overflowing... sigh. I wonder where oh where do all of these hideous clothes come from... not my house. I can hear the comment now, "Do I have any clean jeans?". Will it ever stop? Will I ever catch up? I want to rip through everyone's drawers pulling out all of the items that are cluttering up and causing havic in my laundry room/kitchen. Really, do we really "need" all of these clothes?
Do you ever do that? Just complain until you have found some rationality. I write a lot of invisible post like these only to delete them or have them sit in "drafts". I decided to allow this one to pass through the gates of publish. I am sitting at my kitchen table with my bible opened to Genesis 6. I wasn't going to blog right now... how I started I can't really tell you my fingers just started dancing.